Easter

Here comes easter.. while we were praying just now during choir practise for tomorrow's Sunday Service- Easter Celebration, some kind of sorrowful feeling came knocking into me...

biblically, Jesus was crucified 3 days ago.. he was in the garden of Gethsemane... He prayed and wept... He knew that he will have to carry the cross of the world soon... Yet he willingly went with God's will... He was falsely accused by authority... rejected by his own people.. betrayed by his own disciple... Jesus bore the cross.. it is not just a wooden cross, in the cross it contains the burden of God, the sins of the world.. he was nailed at his hands and feets.. he wore the crown of thorns.. his blood dripped and wet the ground.. it was the only moment when God turned his eyes away from His own son, Jesus.. it was the only moment...

when i was 16 yrs old, i remember seeing a slide projection in church during countdown worship rehearsal.. in the slide it says..

I ask Jesus "How much do you love me?"...
Jesus says "This much"..
and spread his arms on the cross...

i wept when i read that.. though it has been 5 years since i last read the line, my heart is still touched...

What have i done in return for his love? nothing much..
How much have i done..? not much..
Have i done enough..? not enough...
Could i ever do enough..? no i can't...
how can i ever repay your love, dear Jesus...? no i wil never can..

what else on earth that can compare to your death? None..
who else on earth that is willing to die for me? No one..
Where else can i find hope and life if not in you? No where..
What words is good enough to describe my gratitude to you? No word..
Who else can i love deeper than you? None...

and my heart weeps...

because he spread his arms on the cross.. he showed me his nail pierced hand... and then he showed me unconditional love, love so divine none can compare nor replace..

Jesus, Lover of my soul..