Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Random random!!! hihihih

"tap Dap Tap dap tap Dap Tap dap Tap Dap tap Dap"

It's the sound of raindrops falling on our house's roof!! I always love rain =)

Feeling good right now =)

See the cute blue pants im wearing in the pic above..???

wakakakakakaa, paiseh, wearing Trecia's pyjamas pants, cuz she said we're wearing pyjamas to surprise Erwin on his midnight-surprise-event.. i was out of the house already when i got her msg, and i wasn't in sleeping attire.. SO, i changed into her pyjamas pants when i arrived at her house.

and it is so super duper comfy! really soft and light!

I've never had a proper cotton pyjamas before, and never knew it can be so comfy!

Gonna sleep really tight tonight!!

Sunday, September 27, 2009

Day 6, here it comes!

Love everyone as your neighbour

We limit our love because of our differences.
Who is our neighbour? With the samaritan story on Luke 10:25-37 made it clear that there are no limits to our love.
On top of that, love your enemies and pray for those who persecuted you, Matthew 5:43-44.
When Jesus says neighbour, he meant everyone!

God's love is an "everyone/everywhere/all the time" kind of love;
human love is a "some people/some places/some of the time" kind of love.

God, that is so hard.. everyone/everywhere/all the time, even when hurts or disappointment is implicated....??

So he challenges us to love in a way we can only accomplish through daily dependence on his power.

Have i seek His power and love today to love everyone/everywhere/all the time? Have u?

We limit our love because of our fear
It's a risk to love. It's a genuine risk for that Samaritan to stop and help.

C.S.Lewis made this profound observation "To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly be broke. If you want to be sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, no even to an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket- safe, dark, motionless, airless - it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetratable, irredeemable."

You may have experienced deep hurt because you made the choice to love. It would be natural to tell yourself, "I'm not going to open myself up to that kind of pain again."
Who wants to be wounded?

But C.S.Lewis statement reminds us that there is even deeper hurt to be found in not loving than in taking the risk of love.

Take the risk to love!
Take the risk, and begin again to love someone whom you've stopped loving or have refused to love.
Love is the greatest risk you'll ever take. There are people who will skydive off Yosemite Valley's El Captain, yet they are afraid to take the risk to love. I know CEOs who wouldn't flinch from a billion dollar deal, yet they are terrified to love. It's a risk to love, but it is the one risk worth taking more than any other.

Keep this in mind: the one relationship you can truly count on is your relationship to Christ Jesus.

Lean on your relationship to Him as you take the risk to love others.

Others may disappoint you- but Jesus will never fail you.

There's no need for me to write any further. This excerpt from book alone is more than enough to tell the world what it is with loving people.

But i know i don't love everyone/everywhere/all the time... It's hard, it's tough, because i am selfish, i am fearful, i have anger, i am hurt..

That brought up the question, do i try to love with human's selfish love.. or i forgot to depend on God to accomplish love?

I'm supposed to do i-lecture.

But i don't seem to be doing it at the moment.

Saturday, September 26, 2009

Today in chapter 5 of the "40days of Love" book, i read about Loving God with all your mind and strength.

With all your mind
Philippians 4:8
Finally brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable- if anything is excellent or praiseworthy-think about such thing.

God hold us responsible for what we think. I can make choices about what i think that literally change the direction of my life.

Whatever is true? Meditate on God's truth.
Whatever is noble? Appreciate God's worth.
Whatever is right? Cooperate with God's plan.
Whatever is pure? Appropriate God's cleansing.
Whatever is lovely? Anticipate God's abundance.
To think about whatever is lovely is to let God entertain you. This may sound strange, because entertainment means sporting events, movies, television, plays and concerts. But couldn't the greatness, the abundance, the gifts of God entertain you in a different way- in fact, in a much greater way? - the sense of deeply enjoying something. Whatever you're doing- whether with your family or on vacation or at work- enjoy the abundance and the goodness of God. When looking at a blue sky or at the clouds drifting across, take a moment to be entertained by the creativity of God. Enjoy who he really is.

Whatever is admirable? Communicate God's encouragement.
If you're going to love God with your thoughts, you have to love the people he made in the same way. It's all to easy to see the faults in others. Loving God with all your mind involves looking for what's best in others and telling them, " i see something of God's character in you."

If anything is excellent, be motivated by God's greatness.

If anything is praiseworthy, celebrate God's goodness.

With all your strength
To love God with all your strength, there are 3 truths you must embrace.
1. you must have complete confidence that God can do absolutely anything. John 14:12
2. you must be completely convinced that you can do absolutely nothing of ultimate and eternal significance without the power of Jesus Christ. John 15:5
3. you must trust God to turn your weakness into his strength. 2 Corinthians 12:9-10.

There is a difference between an honest admission of weakness and self-focused feeling of inadequacy. The chaos in my family taught me at an early age that there were things I wanted to change but had no power to do so. That experience, along with my personality and perspective, has made it all too easy to go down the road of focusing on my own inadequacy. It's a lot easier for me to see what i think God couldn't do through my life than to see what he surely can do.

I'm learning to make choice to accept my feelings of inadequacy as a weakness and to lean on God's strength.
Pray something like this, "Father you know how I'm feeling about myself right now. I'm tired of pretending i'm strong, so i ask you to use me in my weakness. I trust in your truth: when i am weak, you are strong. Amen."

what's written by Tom Halladay in this book couldn't be more true to me. This year i've unknowingly stop myself to be entertained by God, i stop gazing into the night sky and praise God for such a beautiful bed of stars. i stop looking at flowers along the way as i walk to school and thank Him for that day. i stop looking around me to see that God is such a breath-taking God.
This week is study week break, i made a decision to go to beach, somewhere i can just sit and gaze and be amazed once again, and let praises springs forth from my heart again.

And i learn that i can make choices about how or what i think that literally will change the direction of my life.

As learning to love God with all my strength, it is true, that me coming from a broken family background, knew that there were things i wanted to change, but had no power to do so. Somehow the experiences as i grow up made me a much self-reliant person, who wants to work things out independently, refusing and shutting myself of other people's help, and when cant, decide to not have it at all.
God healed my heart and my brokenness, yet i am to fully change my old ways of living, not to be self-reliant in some situations in life.. but to really depend on Him, and sometimes to be humble enough to accept grace from people around me.

The journey of 40days of love has just begun, but day after day, it has "renovation day" for me, for my heart, my thoughts, actions, decisions and life.

Indeed, the lesson of love is a lifelong learning process, to learn to love like He does.
Friendship is a gift from God,
that is blessed in every parts, born through love, trust and time,
conceived within the heart.

I could have lost other things along the journey,
but i definitely gain one very precious thing from God,
that's you as my long lasting friend.

Lots of love,
Cheah Yen

p/s: this goes out to all my precious friends, every single one of you!

It's just so awesome!!!

Wednesday i was reading on Chapter 3 of "the relationship principles of Jesus"---> the 40days of love book lar..

It talks about loving God with all your heart.

We have to choose to do something different in our lives because of the example and power of Jesus's life. Will you choose to act in new ways this week?

You see the example from David's psalms. He's facing a huge problem, and he begins to pour out his heart. He talks to God with emotions about his problems. And before he comes to the end of the psalm, his heart is at peace. The problems are still there, but David's heart has been refocused in the course of twenty or thirty verses of the psalm.
David's heart is settled in twenty or thirty verses, yet some of us live with unsettled hearts on an issue for twenty or thirty years!

Talk to God about your feelings.
Talk to God about your weaknesses.
Talk to God about His strength.
Tell God your fears.
Pour out to God the desires of your heart.
Openly and emotionally admit your sins to God.
Say out loud what you know to be true.

Instead of living in old ways of broken and hurtful relationships, we can choose to do something different in our lives, because of the power of Living God in me. I choose to act in new way this week, make a decision to show that he/she is worth my time, smile, and get involve in personal conversation and once again invest in relationship with people around me.

Friday, September 25, 2009

Church started the 40days of love last Sunday..

Day 1:
This is the love of a couple who made the choice to continue to love, even in the midst of most crushing of circumstances- Neal having chosen to practice sacrificial love in a marriage that wasn't close to what he and Robin had dreamed it would be, and robin having chosen to accept and return Neal's love rather than allowing her own hurt to push him away.

Relationships are painful. Relationships are wonderful. We all live in drama that plays out between these two truths.

Here's the truth Jesus taught us: Nothing is more important than relationships.

Here's the question: Supposed you're in a rubber life raft with a friend. You're approaching an island. The raft is leaking, and you're within sight of land. In the raft with you are a set of signal flares, a week's supply of canned food, and a five gallon container of water. You must throw one of these items overboard if you're going to make it to the island. Which one do you choose?

I have to admit, the first answer that hit me was "the friend". This silly thought that leaped over my mind was a reminder of how easy it is to value things over people.

Mark 12:28-34
One of the teachers of the law came and heard them debating. Noticing that Jesus had given them a good answer, he asked him, "Of all the commandments, which is the most important?" "The most important one," answered Jesus, "is this: 'Hear, O Israel, the Lord our God, the Lord is one. Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength.The second is this: 'Love your neighbor as yourself.'There is no commandment greater than these." "Well said, teacher," the man replied. "You are right in saying that God is one and there is no other but him. To love him with all your heart, with all your understanding and with all your strength, and to love your neighbor as yourself is more important than all burnt offerings and sacrifices." When Jesus saw that he had answered wisely, he said to him, "You are not far from the kingdom of God." And from then on no one dared ask him any more questions.

From the beginning till the end, nothing is more important that relationships. In the beginning, God created you for relationships. He made you to relate to him and to others. Miss out on relationships, and you're missing the core reason for which God put you on this planet. And in the end, nothing is more important, because nothing will last longer than relationships. Your relationship with God and others will last all the way into eternity.


As i closed my book for the 1st day of journey, i sat there reflecting this year. There are people that i've missed out to love, putting task over relationship , putting issues over relationship, putting exams over relationship. Before it's too late, i commit to show love and put relationship as my highest priority and value.

Nothing is more important than relationship, and that means first to God, then second to people.

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Been listening to this song a lot lately. Shemuel introduced this song to me the 2nd time i went to visit the Poh's family.

but aah, it took me like 3weeks before i really go and find out about this song from youtube.
It's kinda sad song...

Today went for dinner in my Pokok-pokok's house (aka Trecia the Cute) and Erwin. We talked about the story of a tree and two rubber tappers..

There is one tree in the piece of land.. Rubber tapper no.1 saw the tree and went to tap the milk out from the tree.. rubber tapper no.2 saw the incidence and decided to go to sleep..

HAHA, it'll be interesting if you actually manage to understand this story, cuz it is not meant to be understood, except for me, Trecia and Erwin..

It's a sad song.. @.@''' but cant help not listening cuz it's just too nice..
It's my favourite song and it'll be so touching if....


Friday, September 18, 2009


Search For A Star 2009 is coming!
It's tomorrow!
And it's gonna be like never before!

I am anticipating!
But til tomorrow night, my phone is gonna ring non-stop and i'll be clicking in the excel sheet non-stop...!!!!!!!!

after SFAS, i shall ignore my phone for a week !!
because of tis..

but but but...
Its my joy to serve!!

like ,after SFAS night i was so clueless that everything is back to quiet and normal and plain........ =(

Thursday, September 17, 2009

Random Webcam Pictures with my lovely friends

I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go;
I will counsel you and watch over you.
Do not be like the horse of the mule,
which have no understanding but must be controlled by bit and bridle,
or they will not come to you.
Many are the woes of the wicked,
but the LORD's unfailing love
surrounds the man who trusts in him.
Rejoice in the LORD and be glad, you righteous;
sing, all you who are upright in heart!

Psalm 32:8-11

There's peace in heart now, after meditating on Psalm 32:8-11.

I am just an ordinary (next-door-gal says Tommy) who is ordinary at heart. Who feels upset over a flaw, or disappointed over a relationship, angry over uncleaned kitchen..

When i knew that people i know is hiding something from me, it really just make me upset. My heart is like the wild wind outside the window(its very windy today in Perth), blowing strongly in all directions not knowing what is the right and correct thought.

I wanted so much to say that i am not a person who can tolerate flaws in a relationship (friendship or kinship), yet over many occasions i learnt that God he took upon Himself the flaws of the world and love them still so much. He loves me still so much when i'm so full of flaws. Yet i feel disappointed and upset when there is flaw in relationship with people..

side track a little (overheard this from church):
when i feel that i do not deserved to be loved by God for all my flaws, then that means i do not know yet the full measure of the love of God, which is immesureable..
i was like "this cant be true".. but it is true!!
The full love of God accepts and forgives, heals and restores.. all things!

Monday, September 14, 2009

HuuHuuHuu. if this is what i need to go through when serving, then let it be it onto me. Because God's grace and wisdom will guide me through. And i will make daily decision to be a servant of God's kingdom.

Sunday, September 13, 2009

2nd Sem 2009 Cellgroup Family Picture!!!!

Sis's graduation!!!!!!!

Paintball Outing With Cindy Yong's and my cellgroup ^^ 26th August 2009.

SO what's my current update..??

I've attend Maximum Impact Simulcast. It's like a leadership seminar that is run simultaneously (hence the name Simulcast = Simultaneously broadcasted) all over the world in participating churches, all at the same time.. Speakers involves a hugee variety of influential and powerful leaders of the world, not to miss the great motivational speakers such as John C.Maxwell, Tony Blair, Ernie Johnson, Kevin Carroll, Jack Nicklaus, Linda Kaplan Thaler, Al Weiss, Mark Sanborn, Bill George.. and my most favourite speaker of the day, Liz Murray!!

overall ,it was awesome , many principles, motivations and thoughts that they put forth was very very .... ah, let me summarize the points to you!

From Linda Kaplan Thaler:
if something is too complex, simplify your brain and break the problem to small pieces.
Never underestimate the power of small talk (not gossip!!) and the power of interpersonal skills.

From John C.Maxwell:
When you own your dream, you became from the believer to a buyer of your dream. If you own your dream, you're gonna do things that other people think its impossible!
Disappointment = gap between reality and dream.
Do i have firm faundation to my dream? i can make a choice.

From Kevin Carroll:
Stepping out from your comfort zone in courage, sacrifice and discipline.
Check your "want to". talk about it , then "be" it...!!
What's your position, purpose and desire?
When you see problems/ difficulties, you should learn to see them as possibilities.
Brain storm- extending the play, compromise, no "but" .. use "and"
Feel empowered as leaders and say - I believe in your leadership, but i need you to be present in all situations, especially in challenging time. yea, i will get people to come along with you. i trust that you're capable of doing it.

From Tony Blair:
Balance between listening and leading.
Being prepared to make a decision and stand up to the responsibility and consequences.
Being prepared to changes. Many people do not like changes.
You have to motivate your team.
Dependability (accountability, trust, reliability) is a huge element.
Leaders have a belief that they can make a different!!
What is forgivable is to fail, what is unforgivable is not to try.

From Al Weiss:
Many people want to learn about leadership, but little want to live a life of a leader.
Heart of a servant leader--- I care about you. serve them and show them. guide them to grow to fullest potential in their role. empower them to higher level.
Real success id set up priority and live life according to priority- relationship withGod then with family.
Through discipline, you dont have extra hours a day, but you maximize your day.
I have one life to live, one calender, and one set of priority.

From Mark Sanborn:
Do not just perform better, but become better.
Leader helps the sub-ordinate to become more remarkable.
Preparation is important part of success. You prepare for what you love.
keep polishing your life until The Owner come and take us home.

From Jack Nicklaus:
leadership= before you lead anyone else, you lead yourselves
There is no excuse for not being prepared.

From Bill George:
Leaders seem to be losing the calling to lead, cuz they failed to lead themselves.
Leadership is about responsibility.
Leadership is about service- also empower others to step up and lead.
Be a Self-learner, reflect from other people.
Be clear of the values you live by and your basic faith, practise everyday.
Motivations- intrinsic factors that drives you.
Building support team around you, otherwise leadership is lonely.
Be consistent in life, same person at home, work and community.


Finally from Liz Murray!
Liz Murray's life is a triumph over adversity and an example of dreaming big. Murray grew up in the Bronx with cocaine-addicted parents. Murray's mother died when she was 16, leaving her homeless- living on the streets, riding the subway all night and eating from dumpsters. Determined to take charge of her life, Murray finished high school in two years while camping outside out in New York City. After attending Columbia University for a short period to be close to her ill father, Murray recently completed her degree at Harvard, Lifetime Television produced a movie about Murray's story entitled "From Homeless to Harvard," which premiered in April 2003. Liz is the recipient of Oprah Winfrey's first-ever Chutzpah Award and is currently writing her memoirs for Hyperion Books.

What's so amazing about Liz Murray? She shared true-heartedly about her experiences and and how she faced homelessness, death of mother, financial challenges, emotional struggles, social condemnation and etc.. she made me opened my eyes so big, my ears so alert and my mind completely focused on her as she talked.. and at the end of the whole sharing, ppl in the DVD stood up in amazement and applause. She made me feel what i'm facing is so insignificantly and small, that i can pull through them with the least energy and life that i still have. Even if i lose everything, i still have my hands and legs. She said so many inspirational words but i couldnt get my eyes of her as she speaks i ended up didnt write down a thing. But i know what she said relates to me so much, in the end i teared A LITTLE.

I am so inspired to live my life, from now onward with bravery, hope and perseverence!!!








if you can believe today that He can, God is going to do the impossible thing!!

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

I must get back to the habit of writing. Cuz when i look back many years later, i'll be reminded of what happened, what i've experienced, and what i've learned. It's gonna be awesome journey with little moments along the way. I want to pen all my little moments down, big or small, happy or sad, sun or rain, poor or rich, well or ill. ^^ hahaha.

What's my updates?

Alright, I'm going back on the 1st of Dec 2009 (again) yeah. I am looking forward to visit Cheras Night Market. Tommy called me "pasar malam junkie" hahahaaha.

Am not sure what's the plan for Dec in Sitiawan, but i guess, i miss doing all the things that i did in the past, like helping mum's cellgroup to cook food, going around town eating, lie flat on the living room floor and read The Star, goes to church every now and then for the kids dance practises, supper, more of quiet time reading...

Now there's this few sentences ringing in my mind, learn it from Zion some time ago----
"Do not dwell in past glories/grief.. Do not hold on to the past that i miss doing something greater for present and future.. " which i cant agree more...!!!

well, lets look forward to Dec and im sure something greater is yet to come.

And i've already book my ticket to go India on 2nd Jan 2010. It's gonna be my first even self-funded mission trip. Talking bout self-funded, i must really thank God for his provision!
See, i dont have money to go for mission trip but i've yearned to go for mission for some time already. And through serving the church during orientation, i was given the responsibility to lead a group of international students to be volunteers around uni for that particular period of orientation. With that position, comes salary, not much, but it IS ENOUGH to cover for my flight and my spendings there ^^. and what's more, God's timing is always so perfect. It was only this semester that i was receiving salary as Volunteer Leader, and it was also this semester that Ziech call for Zion's first ever mission team to form and respond to God's calling to go into India.

then ring ring, there comes another sentence which i learnt in Zion some time ago "Use what God has given to us for his glory". Now that God has provided me money, i am really thankful that i can use it to go for mission!!

Praise Good for his goodness and mercy in my life today!