Saturday, May 31, 2008
OH MY GOSH...!!!!!!
I WAAANNNT TO GOO HOOMMMEEEEEEEEEEEE.......................!!!!
cryyy..... i went out to throw rubbish, then i saw SOOOO MAAAANNNYYY of the white short fat worm crawling all over the bin...!!!!!!!!! then i scream for 15 -20 secs.................................
my heart ran away after that... it will need so time for my heart to come back.... huuuhuuu.... then when i was spraying one oR two of the maggots with some insect spray (gosh i rather not eat for 100days than spraying the horrible thing ok!!!) when i turn around, i saw MMMOOORRREEEEE crawling on the floor...!!!!!
KILL ME PLEASE...!!! I DUN WAN TO LIVE ADY....!!!!!!!!!!!! SCRRRREEEEAAAMMMM.....!!!!!!!!!!!
so horriblee la...!!! i never see such thing before...!!!! NEVER...!!! then Jac said it was faggots..... EEEEWWWWWW....!!! i wanna go home....!!! MAGGOTS ARE HORRIBLEEEE CREATURE....!!!!
then i Googled Maggots...
i found this...
"maggots chew away woman's brain"
"Picture of brain maggots"
WHY ALL THE PICTURES ABOUT MAGGOTS ARE SO SCARY ONE....!!!!!!!!!! I WANT TO GO HOME...!!! SOMEBODY PLZ BUY ME TICKET SO THAT I CAN GO HOME RIGHT AWAY...!!!
I WANT TO GO HOME...!!!!!
I CANNOT STAY HERE ANYMORE....!!!!!
Friday, May 23, 2008
Did u ever realize, that it is only during exam periods that u actually realize..
(a) the kitchen is dirty and needs clean up
(b) the living room is dusty and needs vacumming
(c) the fingernail is long and needs to be clipped off
(d) the theories of living is louder than ever
(e) the facebook has more pictures and need to be browsed through
(f) the jiwang-ness kicks in more often
(g) there are more posts than ever that u need to post
(i) that there are so many things that u wanna do after exam and u're so committed to doing them, only to ignore doing any of them once the last exam paper is handed in..
Monday, May 19, 2008
-----> taking a break from MicroBiology i-LectureS...
I feel that i am super rajin now...
oh well, it's exam period..
maybe because studying is not my real passion, that's why i need to be "pressed" in order to be rajin to study..
oh Hor Cheah Yen super rajin for listening to i-Lectures!
not having passion to study doesn't mean i cant do it....!!!
Gambateh, Bah Kut Teh, i can do it.....!!
Saturday, May 17, 2008
Mmmm, i receive this utube song in Facebook..
Sometimes i do feel proud being a Malaysian, haha..
i miss ppl in Msia, mmmm not really of the national-scope, but on the hometown scope.. haha, i miss my family, hometown ppl, my church ppl, my goodgoodgood frens, all of them.. one of my good friends,Amy flew to US yesterday, dont know when will i see her again (i mean surely wil meet again but not in the coming two yrs) super love u to the max AMY..!!! but we have ONE LOVE UNDIVIDED, u know that kinda brotherly love that was shared between Jonathan and David in the bible..??
oh how i miss you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you....!!!
Hold on brother hold on
The road is long,
we’re on stony ground
But I am strong and you ain’t heavy
Oh there’s misspoken truth that lies
Colours don’t bind oh no
What do they know? They speak falsely
Here in my home
I’ll tell you what it’s all about
There’s just one hope here in my heart
One love undivided
That’s what it’s all about
Please won’t you fall in one by one by one with me?
Fall in with me
Fall in fall in fall in with me
Push back sister won’t you push back?
Love won’t wait, just keep pushing on
Yes I’m strong, you ain’t heavy
Oh don’t you worry about that
What we have shadows can’t deny
Don’t you know it’s now or never?
(rap in Malay, Chinese, Tamil and English)
Thursday, May 15, 2008
Haiz.... hair kena blown like what.. LOL.. free hair-do from the wind, dont have to go to saloon ady, hahaa... all three of us wore black shirt le, hahahaha..
Being here in ZPH for almost 3semesters, i've witnessed 2 Baptism Services and recently the Baptism of my close friend from hometown - YeeFang. I was so so so glad for her that i almost cried seeing her getting baptised. haha..
i myseld have been baptised by my church pastor when i was 14years old. That was my public declaration- did i even knew that i was declaring it publicly back then??
At that tender age, all i knew was that i made the confession that i am a sinner and i want Jesus as my personal Lord and Saviour. I did attend some sessions, but now thinking back, i am quite sure i have no idea at all what hav i learn from those baptism sessions with church elders.
It was almost like a tradition/trend that teenagers in my hometown church to get baptised when they enter teenage life. So, what i was thinking back then when i got baptised was - i want to be baptised, i want to be baptised, i want to be baptised, it's my turn to get baptised. I never thought deep down to the extend of sharing in Christ suffering, bearing his cross, dedicated and married to God for my whole life, not to live a life of my own but of God's. None of those concepts got into me. I just dont want the biscuits and wine to pass by me during Sunday service and me not being a part of the partakers.
I mean, what would a nerdy 14-yr old gal from a small town think of at that time, only those puppy love, studies, tuitions and best friends, fun.
So, I was very glad that after being baptised, i was able to eat the biscuit and drink the wine during the Sunday of the first week of every month.
I know that baptism is the public declaration out of concious decision to follow God, Jesus.
Only till when i come to Perth and to ZPH, that i heard ppl telling testimonies about getting baptised, of the concious decisions they made and how God convicted them to do so.
Little that i know, being the partaker of the biscuits and wine- literally means being partakers of His flesh and blood. We share everything that is His.
Only when i start to grow spiritually did i realized that being His people means sharing his suffering-loneliness, rejection, temptations, sorrows- in various ways in life.
Being His people also share His glory- joy, victory, power, strength,wisdom,responsibilites,love- in various ways in life.
However, as i continue to be in God's house after that, i have personally experienced God and when i was 16 or so, in one of the prayer sessions, I've seriously out of concious mind (totally having the improved capability to think more mature-ly than i could when i was 14) rededicated my life to God, that i want to follow Him for the rest of my life. How could Jesus die for a sinner like me and love me, forgive me again and again, and call me His beloved daughter?
And from there onward, i have also on numerous other worship sessions, prayer sessions and church conferences, to renew my dedication to Christ Jesus.
So, does that mean i do not have to go for baptism - one decision made out of my own concious?
As i read through the Book of Romans, i came upon this paragraph when Jesus was talking about Jews and Gentiles. Jews were the circumcised and chosen race, they have the Law of Moses with them, while Gentiles not. But if Jews do not follow the Law of Moses, they are nothing more than Gentiles. Gentiles were not circumcised and did not have the Law of Moses ,but they practised the Law of Moses.. Their conduct showed that the Law of Moses is written in their hearts.
The core verses are -
(Romans 2:26) If the Gentile, who is not circumcised, obeyed the Law, will not God regard him as though he was circumcised?
(Romans 2:28-29) After all, who is real Jew, truly circumcised? it is not the man who is Jew on the outside, whose circumcision is a physical thing. Rather, the real Jew is the person who is a Jew on the inside, that is, whose heart has been circumcised, and this is the work of God's Spirit, not of the written Law. Such a person receives praise from God, not from human beings.
So, i guess, this little debate inside me have gotten an answer. God accepted me into His kingdom. So but.. do i still have to make another public declaration..??
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
(1) Dangerous Surrender by Kay Warren
(2) The Hiding Place by Corrie ten Boom
(3) Woman Thou Art Loosed by Bishop TD Jakes
Books that i am yet to finish reading :
(1) The Confident Woman by Joyce Meyer
(2) Facing Your Giant by Max Lucado
(3) Captivating by John & Stasi Eldredge
(4) Be Still My Soul by Elisabeth Jim Eliott
Books that i have read:
(1) I Kiss Dating Goodbye by Joshua Haris
(2) When Boy Meets Girl by Joshua Haris
(3) Using Your Head in Matters of Your Heart by Dr. James Dobson (gift from Amos)
(4) Quest For Love by Elisabeth Jim Eliott
(5) Stories For a Woman's Heart , compiled by Alice Gray
(6) The Purpose Driven Life by Rick Warren (gift from Hang Wan)
Books that i am yet to buy:
Countless.. but before that i wanna read finish my current books first LA... haha
i give to You the authority to be in charge of the things that i am anxious about. Teach me not to be anxious but to walk one step at a time, trusting in Your loving arms that You have already plan my way for me.
Monday, May 12, 2008
now i call her "mii".. shortform from "mummy".
Today in church, i hear many testimonies and words of gratitude from many children of how good their mums are.
they thank their mum for all the things their mum have done like
- speeding over redlight to make sure daughter reach destination on time
- killed the bug
- take pics together
- smile and forgive
- lunchboxes to school
- motherdaughter chat
- saying "i Love you" to each other
- etc etc etc
Deep down in my heart, i know my mum and i didnt share much of those times like what i mentioned above. I used to think that there is not much love in her, but over the yrs as i grow up, i learn to see the other side of my mum's love for me.
She love me a lot in her special ways. Thinking of how she love me brought me to tears, even more as i grow and see clearly her action of love.
As i said in my old old post, i wasnt from a nice typical family ( BUT I THANK GOD FOR IT,CUZ I LEARN TO SEE LOVE AND APPRECIATE THEM MORE NOW). there were lots of fights and heated arguments as we children grew up. YET, She choosed to stay with the family when she could have just leave us and go for a better life.
She disciplined me with rotan whenever i misbehaved, but she applied medicines for my rotan marks.
When i heard her cried silently in the room, i know she was sad but she never let us know, cuz i know she do not want us to be distracted from our studies.
She always complaint that i need to be drived to tution centre, yet despite all the complaints she still drove me there and paid for my tuition fees, unfailingly.
She washed my school uniform with hands and complained of backache, yet the week after she stil continues to handwash my school uniform because she said washine machine will never be able to make my white shirt as clean and as white compared to her handwash.
She leave me to do housechores when i hated so, so that i learn not to be lazy.
She didnt give me much pocket money all the while so that i treasure the hard-earn money of dad.
She listened silently when other aunties brag of the holidays they went and dinners at restaurants, and came home and still cook dinner for us and does all the house chores faithfully.
She has never done expensive shopping, manicure or even spend of luxurious food to pamper herself... but she ate all our leftover foods, bought cheap shoes for herself and waited for me when i came home late.
Most of all, she bore all the heartaches and cried all the tears for the family YET she choosed to stay because of us... i witness my mum's heartaches and disappointments, YET she choosed to not leave us..
My mum might not smile to me that often, nor praised me, or even take sweet-sweet photos with me...
but i know she is proud of me and she loves me with all her energy thoughout all the years..
she gave me all that she can though all that she has is not much...
she stayed strong despite tears and sorrows..
What other mums could have easily provide for or do, it took her 10x more effort and sacrifices to provide and do it for us...
She never tell me "i love you" but i know She does...
she taught me action speaks louder than words and love never fails...
When i graduate, i want to bring her to holiday..
i want to go to morning market with her as often as possible..
i want to pamper her with all the good things and bring her for dinner often..
i want to buy comfortable shoes and nice dress for her..
i want to drive her to church and sit beside her..
Mii, i will study hard to graduate and give you the best that i can offer..
this means I LOVE YOU, Mii...
1. Me as sotong
2. Derrel as Ketam
3. Dayong as Seahorse
4. YeeFang as Prawn
5. JiaHuei as Starfish
6. Melvin as Shark
7. Derek as Lobster
After Marriage :
1. Men has belly cuz they ate finish ALL the food on the table during dinner as a sign of love.
2. Men wash the dishes more often cuz wife cooked.
3. Women lose the body shape for giving birth to kids as a sign of love.
4. Women buy cooking books to improve their cooking skills.
Friday, May 9, 2008
What Hor Cheah Yen Means
You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.
( i love to live)
P/s : below is what my sis commented, any similarity..?? link
(ya , i always Fong Fei Kei for those yamcha time. But Siu Fang teacher said i did a very good job on the church dance team le!)
(hmmm, rmmber those days when i rebelled against my parents.. and i stop working in the STORE as cashier helper cuz i cant stand the repetitive task and boring-ness)
(i admit i am easily jiwang-ed, i think of many things, and by the aged of 15 i have already have names for my kids!!)
Thursday, May 8, 2008
We walked through the Bentley Park. As we walked towards school, a bus sopped in front of us and a lady got down from the bus. No big deal cuz everyday, thousands of people got down from sOO many buses everywhere, isn't??
This lady was ahead of us so i couldnt help looking at her. But it took only like 5 seconds when she caught my attention. I observed her in silence. She isnt very tall nor slim. I saw the way she walked. She seemed to struggle hard to make every step a success. I dont know if i am being too emotional but i felt the walk really took all her strength and energy. She is having limb problem.
My heart took pity on her. How does she feels? Suddenly a feeling of gratitude filled my heart. I thank God that He gave me perfect legs that i can walk like most of the people. I really thank God for giving me perfect limbs. I really thank God that i grow up healthily.
Sometimes, i am just too focused on my small and insignificant problems, that i had taken God's blessing for granted. For many many other things in life, i should have been more than grateful to God yet i choosed to look at the other side of thing.
I am just too foolish that i need God to put a real life example right in front of my eyes to shake me up from my own small room and start to thank God for many big things and how blessed i am compared to many other people.
I thank God cuz He provide my every meal that i was never malnourished. I thank God that i can walk and i can move. I thank God that He gave me a family that i can love. I thank God for giving me education.
And as i walked back from school at about 11am, two grandmas' walk past us. Normally we'll look ahead unless i realize the grandma was looking at me with a smile then only i greet her Good Morning one ma. But this grandma was wearing glasses that i cant see whether was she looking at me anot.. So anyway, grandma broke the silence of noon when she suddenly greeted us "Good Morning darling".... Aaaaaw... so sweet, felt like an angel just spoke to me.. Though her face may have wrinkles, but her face shined like sun and her smile is as refreshing as the morning sea breeze. Felt like, her great smile and greet has just made my day...!
For all these, i thank God.
Sunday, May 4, 2008
U know when ppl serve western meal, they serve Appetizer before serving the main meal..? so i wanna start my pics with appetizer too.. it'll be Eggs + Onions...!!! hahaha
So, not to mix things up, the previous Part 1 pictures was the Celebration for Kids in our housing area. Part 2 is another different celebration for the adults CG here, hahaha. Who say town ppl cant be happening..?? we are very happening ppl ok hihihi.. ^^
Guess who is this poor kid... lol...
cutting all the green and white brocoli..?
And that's my mum and my elder sis!!! heeheehee pretty right...???
kick off the celebration preparation with cutting and preparing the ingredients and cooking utensils.
Single gal and married gal , heehee
Know what is this white thing on my finger tip?? i dunno what is it called in English. In chinese it is "tang yuen". Prol "glutinuous rice ball" in English, heehee.. nice right, so round and smooth, i roll one ok.. hahaha.. preparing to do Tang Yuen Tang for the Aunties and myself, hehehe.
Cute gals man...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok ok, i know it's super pretty! it's mine! ^^ it's in the clay pot outside my house!
so, these are the pics i took on the way walkin back to my house to take something.. then i decided to visit a mini vege farm on a piece of actually-empty-but-now-transform-to-land-of-harvest-due-to-the-hardworkingness-of-some-indian-neighbourhood-ladies.. and what follows next are what i found there ^^
This papaya tree is super fertile man!!! wanna know why i put up this so-common-to-the-max papaya pic here..?? No.1 - cause this pic look so pretty from the angle i took.. No.2- cuz papaya (commonly known as pampam in Perth) is so freaking expensive...!! imagine, setengah biji of papaya cost about RM20..... my goodness..... if my mum knows i buy one, she'll prol scold.. which, i never buy at all, haha...
This purple and round one is the eggplant/brinjal... the long green one is lady fingers, hahaha (cuz it looks like lady's dainty fingers!!! olden day ppl were so literature-minded) which is a beautiful thing, haha...
Some pretty flowers too.. i dunno name of the left one... but every Malaysian shud know the one on the right. the Hibiscus - our national flower.. a yellow hibiscus.. hihi..
Multi-talented Reverand Wong of our Chin Hock Methodist Church ^^ sings professionally, plays the guitar and piano excellently too...!! ^^ Pastor who led worships at numerous conferences nationwide. Anoited and gifted ^^
The congregation listening attentively while Rev. Wong did the sharing. ^^ lovely.
After sharing, as usual, there'll be food. One very distictive thing that is prominent in Foochow ppl ( ppl like me and others who live in Sitiawan).. is FOOD... we just love food... no matter what's the occasion, we'll cook.. massively...!!! no matter how full we are.. we will eat... massively...!!! hahaha... and i'm proud of that.. the other day, Yivvone(my current housemate here) said "do u eat a lot one?". then i ask her how did she know. she replied "oh from the way u eat"... oh well.... mm, hahahaha... i dun mind, i am proud of my heritage => prol i eat in big mouthful.. or chew very fast... eeeeeeeeeehehehehe..
Left : chicken curry
Right: Foochow signature dish - Koo Luu...
See, my sis... simply cant resist the good food... and WenJing too.. lol...!!!!
not just mouth it.. but live and prove it..