Last Saturdaty night, i had quite a bad time while i was about to sleep. Feeling of guilty for not taking study seriously has kicked in into me. on and off, i will think back of the orientation day (21 Feb 2008), when our Unit Coordinator remind us to start studying from Day 1.. But it's like 3weeks into school and i havent done any serious reading yet... and gosh, the feeling of guilt was seemingly unbearable, that saturday night....
Whenever i wanna study, something else will crop up, and i then divert myself to do other not-so-important stuff like, having frens over for dinner at home, grocery shopping, watching Oprah, cuci baju, CHIT CHAT for hours in msn, blogging almost everyday (that happened last week lor...), go out for city trip, and bla bla bla..
So now.. here i am, coming up with this schematic plan, quite practical i think- that i shall blog no more than twice a week, visit blog no more than 3times/week... check email everyday, but visit facebook once a week.. and chat less than 4hrs/week... can i do it..?? i think i can...
of course i need to take a break, takkan wanna study 24/7 right.. sciencestream students need extra lot time to chill out or destress one u know, haha..... but just reduce the amount of time i spend on doing other not-so-important stuff.. and replace it with more stuff that has more superior values.. wow, sounds so "yeng".. but i REALLY want to do it.......
But of all, the bottom line is, whatever is the priority shall remain priority... cellgroup, church time, choir, quiet time, reading some non-secular books time.. all shall remain as my priority....... hmmph...!!!! shall not cut on that... no discount...!!!
i wanna get my days organized.. i shall learn to take control of the events that happen daily...like, control myself not to be enticed by the internet for so long... control myself from chatting in msn till 2am... control myself to do finish my schoolwork on the day itself and... so on and so forth.. stuff like that... guess it's called DISCIPLINE, what do u reckon..???
"jiang dao zhuo dao!!!" .... when translated is... "i (finger crossed) do what i say"....!!!!!
I will not let the feeling of guitly or worried take control of me and freak me out for days... i will not feel gloomy or moody... => ... i hold on to what is good and is hopeful..
Joshua 1:9 Have i not commanded you? be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.
God's msg is simple, He is with us, and He will make us able and strong.
By this, it doesnt mean i can get away with the attitude of lazyness and not studying...
Colossians 3:23 said, whatever you do, work it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men.
Means, if i wanna do something, then i do it wholeheartedly, to the best that i can, and in the end of the day, i gotta present my work to God, the final supervisor of my life..... hhhmmph...!!!
ok, i am giving myself warning... do my best and God do the rest...!!!!
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feeling more hopeful and cheerful now..!!!
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