My Boyfriend..??

Sat in front of the computer for like half an hour, wondering how to start putting them into words. I dunno how, it's like all jumble up, like a messy roll of threads, cant find the starting point, tangle up.

Anyway, am listening to this song sent by Yuwan- No Reserve Love, lalalala..

Few days ago, was thinking back of the typical prince charming picture, neh, the one ah, prince charming wearing white suit, riding on a white horse, a fit white horse, heading towards you with the most charming smile ever and your heart just melt. Then i mar ter-think, of some of the people around me that has got attached. They've got their princes charming coming and now they're riding on the white horses together with their respective princes charming. Quite a number of people lor, not just one or two. If it's one or two people, then i wouldnt mind so much =P. But really one lor, seeing them having a "sin fu" time sometimes makes me wonder, where is my prince charming? When is he coming on the white horse?
Then i tell myself a few possibilities; Maybe he's waiting for the tailormade white suit to be ready, maybe he's polishing his leather shoes, maybe he's having a haircut, maybe he's waiting for the horse to be more fit so as to be able to carry me together, maybe he's looking at the map finding the best road to come and see me, or maybe he's this and that, this and that.
Or.. maybe i should take a plane and accidentally felt into a jungle, there i might meet my Tarzan and live happily ever after ??? ( dont tell me i dream a lot, i know that =P ).
All those make me feel "How nice it is if... How sweet it is if.. How wonderful it is if..". Feel like admiring those with their happy partners, and how good how nice how faithful is their partner to them, that kind of stuff.
Yea, all those make me feel how nice if i have one too. How nice...!!!!

But looking at the world right now- i mean, why?? why is it so easy for people to say I Love You only after knowing each other for like few months ONLY, why they define Love as a feeling or best wishes towards that someone (gosh, that's so not correct ok), how fragile is their self-proclaim-100-years-of-faithfulness, why thier love last so short, so short, really very short lor.. human's love is weak... weak...
I rather stay single for good than getting myself into this kind of so-called-love. Saving myself from disappointments and heartaches, correct?

OKIE, i sound like i've lost hope in worldly love, lost hope in man, lost hope of falling in love and lost hope in marriage.. I'm not...!! i am not... i am not... I AM NOT...
it's just that, i realize human's love is weak lor, full with holes and stitches( how to spell that??).. but i also know no human is perfect, no one is perfect.. even the best man in church is not perfect lor.. we cant help being disappointed by people sometimes.. we cant help seeing people that we love to have weaknesses.. even a hero doesn't look like a hero when he wakes up from sleep with messy hair and sleepy look, brush his teeth like everyone else.. and goes to toilet like everyone else.. rite..
so, the point is..
take heart, find perfect love in God alone, because His love is so perfect that, only can it reflects on how imperfect our love is... seriously, only His love is perfect, with no holes and stitches, no leakage, not even a crack..
i can only find perfect love in Him.. and as to when will my prince comes my way, i am yet waiting with patience.. as i said, human aren't perfect.. sometimes i do grow impatient and have the want to have a boyfriend fast, don't want to miss out the sweet times other people is enjoying now.. but more than that, i don't want to miss out God's plan for me, the guy that he has in mind for me.. or maybe He wants me to love Him alone, who knows rite =>..
but i am grateful, everytime, somehow, someone, or something, just brings me back to reflect on His perfect love so that i wont be in rush to fall in love, and i wont be sad that i dont have boyfriend yet...and If God really wants me to love Him alone, i am sure He will somehow lead me to find satisfaction in Him alone geh... right right right... heeheeeheee ^^