One small whisper

Few months ago, I sat there as i listened to Pastor Ling shared. I sat there quietly and dreamt what if.. so i whispered...
it was just a small whisper, of a sentence, in my heart towards God. it wasn't even a proper prayer... Since it wasn't what i say a proper prayer, I wasn't sure whether it was presented to God , or was it even loud enough to be heard by God....

So , it is true when the Bible says "God sees our hearts".. He knows my desire.. He know me inside out. What was insignificant, He knows.. and what small desire that i was afraid to let the world know, He knows.. Few days ago, God granted it to me.. and now that i am having it, i will use it for His glory... it might take years before i can fully fulfill my small desire, but i will not be shaken..

One day... i will let the people around me know, of what God has given to me when i whisper a small whisper... My God is not too big/busy that He has neglected me nor bypassed my small little whisper..
But this desire is not longer that small... hour by hour, day by day, i feel it is getting bigger and closer... that one day will come, when i can worship Him with more than just words....

Tagged by JiaHuei

Instructions:


Remove 1 question from below and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post.

1. At what age do you wish to marry?

Muahahaha... of course (preferably, if possible) between 26 to 28 yrs old, cuz it's dangerous to give birth after 30yrs old leee... my biological clock starts like THIS YEAR >.<''' Hmmm, if got bf only talk la ya.. No point talking now, hahahahaha..

2. What will you do when you feel really emo?

Ring up my frens to chat, mug at home for 3 days and sleep, go to beach alone, cry...

3. What do you have in your mind now?

Why Easter break has to end so fast!!! woohoo, i lost one kg again.. but too thin not nice..... i shall EAT MORE...

4.Where is the place that you want to go most?

Never tot of that... generally beach, but particularly, dunno yet.. some really nice beach that i've never been to before, can make my jaw drops one.. with sunset and sunrise.. HONEYMOON time.. LOL...

5.If you have one dream to come true, what would it be?

i wish that i have 100 more dreams to come true... kihkihkihkihkihkih....!!!!

6.Do you believe in seeing the rainbow after the rain?

of course can see... HAIYO... if we stand with our back facing the sun, and spray fine droplets of water into the air, then mar can see ady lor.. but i've seen natural rainbow many times.. few times there were DOUBLE rainbows too.. cool man..! but wonder where does rainbow ends... theoretically, we can chase rainbow.. cuz as we move, the angle of view changes, and rainbow cant be seen ady, get what i mean..???? Lecture time..

7.What are you afraid to lose the most right now?

time ^^....

8. What cheers you up for the rest of the day?

being at home, Nice windy day, prol rains.. and good time sleep ^^

9.If you meet someone you love, would you confess to him/her?

Nah.. i most prol wont.. i shall wait... haha... (deep thoughts now =.=''')

10.List out three good things of the person who tagged you.

chicky lor, sing super well like an idol, and is tall.. i'm taller though.. haha

11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?

LOTS, listed them out 2yrs ago.. but i'l leak out one of them la.. hahahha.. it's "sometimes romantic".... hahahahha...!!!

12.What type of person do you hate the most?

wahseh.... no energy to hate la.. waste my ATP molecules la if i hate... u know how many processes my cell have to go through in order to make one ATP molecule..??? what for waste it.. treasure ATP molecule and try to love everyone, hahahah..

13.What would you do if you won a million dollars?

PAY OFF MY BOND!!

(quoted JiaHuei 2008)

14.What is your ambition?

graduate from Curtin as pharmacist... oh well, that's what i've gotten myself into, 3yrs back.. now no choice, have to live with it, hahahahaha..

15.What would you wanna be after you're dead?

What else can i be, i am biologically dead ok.. come on la, use common sense, hahaha..

16. If you have a chance, which part of your character would you like to change?

blur-ness... and forgetfull-ness....

17. What is your favourite colour?

definitely WHITE!!!

18.What do you think is the most important thing in your life?

my body..?? how to live without heart, brain, lungs, kidney, stomach, intestine...???

19. If there’s one thing in your life you want to do but yet unable to, what would it be?

never thought of that... i'm no longer a kid, where got think such thing one le.. prol.. be a REAL angel ^^...

20. What would you do if tomorrow was the last day of the world?

tell everyone i love, that i really love them!! sobz... and if the one i love hasnt come to me, then i shall bravely walk to him and tell him.. "i love u" .... sobs sobs sobs..

ok i'm done..and i shall tag:

Lin Foong

Peter

Evangeline

Derek

Dayong

Melvin

Notes from PingPong (loosely translated as LinFoong)..

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To Ann

I've been thinking about this for quite some time dy. But din took the effort, cause it something in my mind, my thoughts, and my thoughts are usually very damn messy one.

Reading ann post (Kisah Siti dan Ali) made me rethink about it. Time really passed so fast. Its been 4 years since I left high school, almost 2 years that I'm here, and in app two months I will go back to Malaysia. Wow.

And then the memories of high school came back. When we were stayng back at Koh centre after physic tuition classes for chemistry tuition classes, how we kap chai's and all that. How we giggled at the Nan Hwa school guys.

Ann you remember the time when I called you when you were constipating in the toilet wtc! ahahahaha! The time after physic quiz. Wtc. That was the funniest.

And you remember the time I din do well in my SPM? You and peter called me. And just listen to me cry. You din say anything to comfort me, yet that was the best comfort you could ever give.

The time you came over to stay at my place in college. I still remember you ter-cut your finger with my knife and yet your hand din bleed cause you were complaining how blunt my knife is wtc.

And the time I spent at your college, wa can really die man. At night kena gigit my mosquito till half dead man!!! And we slept like less then 4 hours then had to go to Genting.

And the time you showed up at the airport. I really din expect it.

Its been 2 years since we seen each other, and probably another 2 years before we see each other.Hor Ah Ann, see you made me cry dy!

link: http://linfoong.blogspot.com/2008/03/portugal-beaches.html

From me to Lin Foong :
oh gal.. i love you just too much....

you also know it's already 2yrs.. i wanna see u, physically..!

eik, why mention me constipation.... shy la.... hahahaha...

who say u din do well in SPM, ur result is in the top 10% nation scorers ok..and now u're in UK doing Medic ady... so proud of u, u know.. i always tel ppl around me that i have a best friend in UK and she's taking medic there..

oh i rmmber, u help me sneak into ur hostel, wore ur swimsuit, super tight.. and u taught me how to swim in the swimming pool, middle of the night..

ya, it was near my trials exam and i brought along my phyics textbook to genting, siao.. hahahaha....

i didnt plan to show up at airport, but then when i was crying the night before, and u told me "if u miss me so much, why dun wanna come to airport?" that sentence changed my mind and i decided to go airport without letting u know first.. hugz... so sad seeing u go down the escalator.. cuz i know wont be seeing u for years.... sobz.... sobz....

it's been 2yrs.. and prol another 2yrs til we see each other... love u and miss u really a lot..

Kisah Siti dan Ali

What is the difference between the first picture and second picture..?

1) taken at different time

2) taken at different angle

3) taken at different location

4) taken by the same person

It is the same.. same thing looks different because time moves, we're no longer 14 years old but 21years old.. same thing looks different because people perceives it differently too, all shaped by knowledge and experiences gathered throughout the past.. same thing looks different because we're no longer where we are, we do not dwell in the current which eventually becomes past, but we move on to future which eventually becomes present...
same thing looks different even though we are still who we are.. i was me, i am still me... but same thing looks different now..

7 years ago, Ali jatuh hati pada Siti. Ali menelefon ke rumah Siti setiap hari. Ali melafaz cinta pada Siti. Ali belajar rajin-rajin demi Siti. Ali berkayuh basikal ke rumah Siti selalu. Ali buat apa yang bagus dan baik. Siti tersentuh hati. Tetapi akhir tidak bersama karena salah faham. Siti dan Ali masing masing menyimpan persoalan.

7 years later, Ali bertemu dan bercakap kepada Siti kembali. Siti terkenang masa silam yang manis bak indah. Ali berkata dia bertatu nama "Siti" pada tangannya 7 tahun dahulu. Siti terkagum nan sebak. Tatu masih ada, namum apa yang lain semuanya berubah.

Easter Sunday Service 2008

It was Easter Sunday. I was in the choir. We sang in the church.

Can u spot me?

My HOUSEMATES...!!

Evangeline, Janica, me, Jaclyn

upper row ( L to R): Derek, Dayong, Yeefang, Melvin, Derrel

lower row (L to R): Evangeline, Jaclyn, Jia Huei, Janica, me

Relationships with me:

Housemates- Janica, Jaclyn, Evangeline

PR in my house - Jia Huei and Yee Fang

Extended family- Derrel, Dayong, Derek, Melvin

so this is considered... a formal "FAMILY PHOTO".. hahahaha..

another "family photo" after easter sunday service.. ^^

Another one.. i think everyone looks lovely.. cuz it's not often that we gals wear skirts to church, and with the white top, everyone looks polite and just so lovely.. ^^
as for the guys, they dress up as well, so it's a good day to take family photo ^^.. hahahaha

Pic 1: Jaclyn, Tracey, me

cotton candy belongs to me and Tracey, we queued and got the cotton candy free ^^

Tracey is my beloved friend from China, and i first met her during passion booth last year, she's sweet and soft spoken, so gentle and i feel like protecting her all the time ^^ i like to hold her hands.. u know , there are some nice-to-hold hands and not-so-nice one.. haha, generally, bigger arms are nicer to hold while walking, like Tracey's and Siaw Tze's hand.. YeeFang's hand is thin, so not that nice.. but all are my gals hands, all are precious...!!! ^^

Pic 2: Jason, me, Ivan

Ivan is my hometown friend, Jason is Ivan's friend, so basically Jason become my friend too, haha. rlly appreciate them coming to church. they gotta wake up early, so it's rlly rlly nice of them. ^^

They are all my juniors from Intec, plus Claire (the gal to my right) who is Yeefang's housemate. ^^ wonder why were almost everyone wearing white top, hihihiih..

Iris, love ya much! ^^ she's in the choir too. still love ya a lot!

My very first cellgroup in Perth (first sem 2007)

Iris, Jia Huei, me, Koko Lawrence

gosh all are wearing white.. look like angels ^^ i so love that sunday man..

Pic 1: Usha, Pauline, me

Pic2: Yan Hua, me

i love you guys too....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Usha is so so so pretty and lovely, i like to look at her laughing, cuz then will be able to see her dimples, and combined with her sharp nose and rabbit tooth and sweet smile, oh i can look at her for hours and hours and hours! She taught us choir and she pinned my hair for me that sunday! thanks usha! muacks!

Pauline is so chicky and bubbly! hahahahah... always make ppl around her laugh with her. and i miss having her around la now. when we're in vickery, we hang out together and she stood beside me in choir and during choir practise time.. love poking u, hahaha.

Yan Hua the star of the day! she's in the drama team and the drama team make the service amazing. rlly amazing, my tears was accumulating when i saw the skit. Jesus is alive and he is real, he is always wanting us to be back to him.

Pic 1: me, Zie, and Jie's friend

Pic 2: me and Jim

i met Zie during this year's passion booth, she looks so so so much like Fenny!! and she smiles ALL the time!!!! she's always so cheerful...!

Jim is my Intec junior, he's now in UWA for bachelor of engineering. He's a godly guy, a worship leader, a guitarist, a trustworthy friend, encouraging, an intercessor. and he's single, lol..

Pic 1: Jeng and me

Pic 2: Dayong and me

Jeng is my coursemate, also the highschool mate of Janica. Jeng is a nice friend, always give us a ride to school when the weather is HOT.. hahaha.. thanks for all the free ride! and when the strong wind and rough rain comes in winter, will need ur help again, haha.

I knew Dayong through last year's 2nd Sem cellgroup, a excessively kind-hearted friend. thanks for all the help all the while yea ^^.

This is William! i knew him through my cellgroup this year. He's funny, joker, and he's like out big bro in cell, talks like a big bro and acts like one. haha

the pics that follow next are those who went for Bubble Tea in the city after Easter Carnival, hahaha.. Derek, Janica, Sara, Derrel, Claire, YiJia, Thomas,me and Sara, YeeFang, Jia Huei, Dayong.

Pictures

I joined my housemate's cell for their outdoor worship night, it was a very windy and cold night. The sky was bare, that was when i posted a blog titled "starry starry night" and had the conversation with Someone ^^

On random Sunday Service, where i actually wore "unusually funny..." ... hahahahha... But Yan Hua is cute over there in the pic..!
My housemate, Janica Loh and I..

During Zion Food Fest on 23rd February ^^. LOTS of fishballs............ hahaha..

Us gals had decided to go for movie so abruptly one night. We got dressed up in half an hour, book the online ticket and went off to Garden City for the movie "definitely maybe".. it was then my 8th time entering cinema.. haha, super excited, lol.. But the cinema was really really comfy, and i almost felt asleep... before going in, we took a pic with the chipmunks.. heehee.. we bought the chipmunks.. haha.. tiny little chipmunks, lol..

Pose....... before going into cinema..

Obviously the cinema was very empty as u can see from the empty chairs ^^.. there were less than 10 people in the cinema.. maybe because it was wednesday night.. haha..

I love this picture so much, very pretty right Janica and Jia Huei ^^

So lots of candy...!!!! tonnes of them..!!! amazed...!!!

This cinema outing was a very fun one, cuz it was what gals do out of random at random nights, especially when u have friends coming over to stay overnight (like Jia Huei, haha). Fun, we get to exchange wardrobe.. it the gals BONDing time!

Easter

Here comes easter.. while we were praying just now during choir practise for tomorrow's Sunday Service- Easter Celebration, some kind of sorrowful feeling came knocking into me...

biblically, Jesus was crucified 3 days ago.. he was in the garden of Gethsemane... He prayed and wept... He knew that he will have to carry the cross of the world soon... Yet he willingly went with God's will... He was falsely accused by authority... rejected by his own people.. betrayed by his own disciple... Jesus bore the cross.. it is not just a wooden cross, in the cross it contains the burden of God, the sins of the world.. he was nailed at his hands and feets.. he wore the crown of thorns.. his blood dripped and wet the ground.. it was the only moment when God turned his eyes away from His own son, Jesus.. it was the only moment...

when i was 16 yrs old, i remember seeing a slide projection in church during countdown worship rehearsal.. in the slide it says..

I ask Jesus "How much do you love me?"...
Jesus says "This much"..
and spread his arms on the cross...

i wept when i read that.. though it has been 5 years since i last read the line, my heart is still touched...

What have i done in return for his love? nothing much..
How much have i done..? not much..
Have i done enough..? not enough...
Could i ever do enough..? no i can't...
how can i ever repay your love, dear Jesus...? no i wil never can..

what else on earth that can compare to your death? None..
who else on earth that is willing to die for me? No one..
Where else can i find hope and life if not in you? No where..
What words is good enough to describe my gratitude to you? No word..
Who else can i love deeper than you? None...

and my heart weeps...

because he spread his arms on the cross.. he showed me his nail pierced hand... and then he showed me unconditional love, love so divine none can compare nor replace..

Jesus, Lover of my soul..