Remembering

There is an endless day when i hear it whisper gently into me as far as my memory can lead me i could only remember... How could it be? that it was a mistake, a wrong take the moment i obeyed my own desire my own desire what was is that was broken was shattered? was given with no returned? was ruined beyong repair? sadness and bitter came uninvited sorrow and tears the unwelcome guest. choose to retract into my shell hide there in quietness in darkness deprive from the world and all that is moving no one sees heaven calls out to me loved ones try to bail me out the world shouts at me yet when all is done i am still i am crushed defeated to God Almighty i cry out Abba Father have mercy grace of unending love chains need to be broken release my soul my spirit save a wretch like me a wretch like me a broken heart a rotten past all of me that is gone and none of me that remains O God My only Savior if You that said my hope is in Your promise my strength is in Your power my life is in Your hand even when i could not comprehend Your work i could not see Your plan i could not feel Your love i will trust in You let my spirit not wither let my heart not decay as long as life sustains as long as life sustains.