it's 5.20am... i couldnt sleep..

i received sms from Pris at 2.30am that she's leaving Perth for good, to the eastern state to work...
her flight is on coming Sunday night..

then my tears couldnt stop coming down... i sob and cried and sob and cried... for hours... i just couldnt sleep...

all the memories with Pris flash back like a happy movie but it brings sadness to my heart..

i remember the days in September and October, every now and then that Pris rings me up to go out for lunch or dinner..

I remember one day after my final exam, i went to library to accompany her so that she will not feel bored studying alone for her Pharmacy VIVA test, and then we headed for lunch in vic park....

I remember the korean restaurant and the International Cafe, and the super expensive Indonesian restaurant , all of them in Vic Park, the dark alley where we park the car, when Pris forgotten if she has locked her car, when we just walk along the streets enjoying the night..

i remember the Summer day in November when Pris brings me to Northbridge.. when we walked along the streets on day time, jumping from one bun shop to another bun shop looking for a special bun.. and from one restaurant to another restaurant looking for nice satisfying lunch... and she laughing at my silliness for being a "mushroom" and me laughing at her silliness when talking with a mouthful of food..
then she told me she's gonna bring me out for food more often, to try out all the nice food around perth...

i remember the nights in Northbridge when we had Bibimbap as dinner, and then bubble tea, and then we walked along the streets again in Northbridge looking at all sorts of people that come out for dinner and coffee and clubbing at night.. then we sneaked in to a snooker shop, and look at the people playing snooker and we walk and we walk and we walk before coming back home..

i remember the days when she brought me to Carousel to shop for some stuff, and me waiting while she try on cloths and us looking around for food.. when i teased her for being full by just looking at food and not eat them.. and she telling me all sorts of nice foods and where to get them..

i remember one day when she message me from Malaysia that she was actually in Sitiawan, following a tour with her pastor and church members... i was so excited i told her the foods in sitiawan, and how i wish i was in Sitiawan to bring her around, as she has always bring me around in Perth..

because she is very tall, so i walked holding to her arm most of the time when we're out together, either for food or for walk walk... i listen to her whine bout her worries of future, while she listen to my complaints and nonsense bout my studies...

it was all nice, i never thought it would come to an end..

No more, bringing me out to walk walk along the streets and hunt for food..

No more talking and listening to Pris...

No more, holding to a tall-and-lovely Pris's arm when walking....

no more seeing her in person for some time...


but i knew that she knew she has to make a decision, one that is good for her career and future..
when she told me she found a job in Melb and is flying over in 5days time...

i knew God blesses her, and i love to have her blessed and leading a fulfilling life!
i love Priscilla so much, cuz she treats me like a younger sister, a person whom i can manja with, a loving gentle arm tat i hold everytime we walk together while listening to each other talking..

my tears dry up as i write this post.. finally...





i thought gone were the days where i cry a lot..
when i cried 3 days after realizing a guy that i liked, had a girlfriend..
when i cried 2days after sending Lin foong off to airport knowing i wont be able to see her for years...
no, it is not gone yet...


it is so dangerous to love.. because when we love, we put our heart in a fragile position, giving complete right for our heart to be broken anytime... and yet we love, because love is so beautiful it overweigh anything else....

i will send her off on Sunday night with full blessings, i will smile and let her know i love her, i will miss her a lot..
i will buy her her favourite food from Carousel, i will develop a photo of us so that she can keep in her purse all the time, i will continuously remember her to remember me and to sms me.. i will hug her tight and hold her arm... i will write her all the things i remember about her and the restaurants we've been to.. i will giv her a beautiful keychain so that she can use it to hold the key to her new place in Melb..
i will send her off with tears and prayers..
i will remember her with love.. i will keep in touch with her faithfully..

love you a lot, Pris... ;(....