Today i recieved my results for some of the tests conducted few days ago. It was really really low. I passed but it was so so so low compared to the total average mark of the rest of the 150 students.... I was very upset and discouraged.......

after the lab session, i went to do grocery shopping with Janica. Once i reached home and unpacked the groceries, i went straight to my room....

I questioned God , "why why ... why .... why...??" I prayed, i kept quiet... i asked God to be merciful to me.. to grant me grace... to help me.... i kept quiet again... then i prayed to Him to help me to give thanks no matter what..

After prayer, i decided to flip the bible and continue reading from where i stopped.. it was in Romans 8... as i read... this passage strucked me that.. nothing, ABSOLUTELY NOTHING can seperate me from the love of God...

³¹What, then, shall we say in response to this? If God is for us, who can be against us? ³²He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all—how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things? ³³Who will bring any charge against those whom God has chosen? It is God who justifies. ³⁴Who is he that condemns? Christ Jesus, who died—more than that, who was raised to life—is at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us. ³⁵Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? ³⁶As it is written: "For your sake we face death all day long; we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered." ³⁷No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. ³⁸For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, ³⁹neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Yes, Jesus loves me, Yes Jesus loves me, Yes Jesus loves me, the bible tells me so!!!

I thank God that through his words He assures me that He loves me still, and He is teaching me the lesson that nothing, absolutely nothing, not HARDSHIP, not BAD RESULTS, not DISCOURAGEMENT, not even death (nor life) can seperate His love.

He holds nothing back from us, he wil gives them all freely to us, cuz He has given His most precious Son to us. What else can He not bless us with?

How weak am i to forget about His love when situations turns unfavorable!!

i will believe in His words, i will hope and i will rejoice!


Lord God forgive me for my lack of faith and lack of love. Forgive me that i did not fix my eyes on you when i get bad results. Forgive me for questioning what You have given to me. Father God, i asked again for You to be merciful and gracious onto me. Open my eyes to Your unending love and Your goodness for all the time. thank you Lord so much for your beautiful promises, and i will continue to proclaim that only You have the control over my life. Father Lord as i try my best to study, so please also continue to grant grace and mercy in my studies Lord. Bless me and i will bring Your blessings to Your temple to dedicate it all back to You for Your glory. Amen.

=)

Sis. i am so proud of you.

for your perseverence despite circumstances.

for your sacrifice regardless of the price.

for your encouragement in all seasons.

for your love towards family, every single person.

i am really really really proud of you.

other gals of your age might be enjoying but you are doing all you can within your capacity in order not to burden family...

sis, hang on there!

Help and Grace is gonna come from God our Provider for all the time!!

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A prayer has been kept into shelf for two years

but for time such as this

the prayer shall now lay bare before You

You knew even before i speak

You planned even before i have thoughts

so now Lord i pray

You are gracious to give, in Your time..

Some wierd feeling makes me wanna post some pictures in blog. hasnt been doing so for so long, hahahaha ^^ And i changed my hairstyle as u can see here...

then i rebond it so it looked straight... and i went to Belgium, hence the pic u see now..

Then i bomb my hair again and went to China for holiday....

LoL lame.. hahaha, just becuz i realized that my webcam has this function where i can choose my vitual hairstyle, colour, sunnies, caps, etc, so i thought it was pretty interesting at that time of life (3am weekdays studying)...
.One of the days when my mood was sky rocket high... i was inspired by this Apricot Almond Cake and so i decided to bake..


3 Batches.. and gave them to my cell members. and my housemates too ^^.


When we're in the class waiting for Kevin Betty to come and teach us calculations for Pharmacokinetics.

Saturday when i went to UWA service with Javier for the Baptism Workshop. We're 10minutes early, the weather was fantastic, the riverside was inviting, so we went for a brief stroll.. and guess what!!!! i saw TWO DOLPHINS...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOVE LOVE LOVE....!!! they were swimming side by side, so near to riverside tat i can even see their eyes, wakakakaakak... so excited in from of younger ppl..... >.<'''

Fenny lent me this movie which i've always wanted to watch, and i lent it to a fren of mine who also, enjoyed it as much as i do!

Bid farewell to my dear Pris, miss her dearly.......

Celebrated YeeFang's 21st sweet birthday...!!! heehee... ^^

Caught lying on the computer tables on friday night when studying =.='''

Trecia who took the pic, of which she was also caught picnic-ing in the room, wakakakakaka....!!!!!

Once yearly (annually LOR) home grown orange harvest in autumn!!! this batch promises more sweetness and amount.. in short, IMPROVED QUALITY AND QUANTITY, heheheheeh....!!!!!

the strawberry and peach are for this wonderfabuloso cheese cake, which we (me,Javier,Zhen Ping) made for Andre's 1/4 of century Birthday last friday...!!! kekekekkeee...

Was my first cake.. but not for my bf, wahahahahaha..




Okie, now try your(my) best for finals!!! pray for the rest!!! and then i can enjoy winter when mum and aunt comes over ^^

Psalms 37:4
Delight yourselves in the Lord
and he will give you
the desires of your heart.

i feel like climbing to the 2-metres-high-wooden-walk-way that is located in front of MacD at Fremantle beach... and sit there for sunset.. and have my loveliest frens there around with me.. just feeling peacefully glad and thankful for my life, our lives.. thanking God for He is a big God and i can hope in Him.

i love my life and the people in my life and the God in my life!

it's 5.20am... i couldnt sleep..

i received sms from Pris at 2.30am that she's leaving Perth for good, to the eastern state to work...
her flight is on coming Sunday night..

then my tears couldnt stop coming down... i sob and cried and sob and cried... for hours... i just couldnt sleep...

all the memories with Pris flash back like a happy movie but it brings sadness to my heart..

i remember the days in September and October, every now and then that Pris rings me up to go out for lunch or dinner..

I remember one day after my final exam, i went to library to accompany her so that she will not feel bored studying alone for her Pharmacy VIVA test, and then we headed for lunch in vic park....

I remember the korean restaurant and the International Cafe, and the super expensive Indonesian restaurant , all of them in Vic Park, the dark alley where we park the car, when Pris forgotten if she has locked her car, when we just walk along the streets enjoying the night..

i remember the Summer day in November when Pris brings me to Northbridge.. when we walked along the streets on day time, jumping from one bun shop to another bun shop looking for a special bun.. and from one restaurant to another restaurant looking for nice satisfying lunch... and she laughing at my silliness for being a "mushroom" and me laughing at her silliness when talking with a mouthful of food..
then she told me she's gonna bring me out for food more often, to try out all the nice food around perth...

i remember the nights in Northbridge when we had Bibimbap as dinner, and then bubble tea, and then we walked along the streets again in Northbridge looking at all sorts of people that come out for dinner and coffee and clubbing at night.. then we sneaked in to a snooker shop, and look at the people playing snooker and we walk and we walk and we walk before coming back home..

i remember the days when she brought me to Carousel to shop for some stuff, and me waiting while she try on cloths and us looking around for food.. when i teased her for being full by just looking at food and not eat them.. and she telling me all sorts of nice foods and where to get them..

i remember one day when she message me from Malaysia that she was actually in Sitiawan, following a tour with her pastor and church members... i was so excited i told her the foods in sitiawan, and how i wish i was in Sitiawan to bring her around, as she has always bring me around in Perth..

because she is very tall, so i walked holding to her arm most of the time when we're out together, either for food or for walk walk... i listen to her whine bout her worries of future, while she listen to my complaints and nonsense bout my studies...

it was all nice, i never thought it would come to an end..

No more, bringing me out to walk walk along the streets and hunt for food..

No more talking and listening to Pris...

No more, holding to a tall-and-lovely Pris's arm when walking....

no more seeing her in person for some time...


but i knew that she knew she has to make a decision, one that is good for her career and future..
when she told me she found a job in Melb and is flying over in 5days time...

i knew God blesses her, and i love to have her blessed and leading a fulfilling life!
i love Priscilla so much, cuz she treats me like a younger sister, a person whom i can manja with, a loving gentle arm tat i hold everytime we walk together while listening to each other talking..

my tears dry up as i write this post.. finally...





i thought gone were the days where i cry a lot..
when i cried 3 days after realizing a guy that i liked, had a girlfriend..
when i cried 2days after sending Lin foong off to airport knowing i wont be able to see her for years...
no, it is not gone yet...


it is so dangerous to love.. because when we love, we put our heart in a fragile position, giving complete right for our heart to be broken anytime... and yet we love, because love is so beautiful it overweigh anything else....

i will send her off on Sunday night with full blessings, i will smile and let her know i love her, i will miss her a lot..
i will buy her her favourite food from Carousel, i will develop a photo of us so that she can keep in her purse all the time, i will continuously remember her to remember me and to sms me.. i will hug her tight and hold her arm... i will write her all the things i remember about her and the restaurants we've been to.. i will giv her a beautiful keychain so that she can use it to hold the key to her new place in Melb..
i will send her off with tears and prayers..
i will remember her with love.. i will keep in touch with her faithfully..

love you a lot, Pris... ;(....